{"id":1560,"date":"2010-08-06T00:15:57","date_gmt":"2010-08-05T20:15:57","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/?p=1560"},"modified":"2020-03-11T21:46:29","modified_gmt":"2020-03-11T17:46:29","slug":"h%c9%99rd%c9%99n-soz-tapmayanda","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/?p=1560","title":{"rendered":"H\u018fRD\u018fN S\u00d6Z TAPMAYANDA&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<div id=\"_mcePaste\">\n<div id=\"_mcePaste\"><strong><a href=\"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/ahmad9.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft size-full wp-image-1561\" title=\"ahmad\" src=\"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/ahmad9.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"150\" height=\"100\" \/><\/a>\u00d6z\u00fcm-\u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 s\u0259mimi s\u00f6hb\u0259t&#8230;<\/strong><\/div>\n<div id=\"_mcePaste\">Yen\u0259 d\u00fcn\u0259nki g\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015fay\u0131ram&#8230; el\u0259 d\u00fcn\u0259nki g\u00fcn d\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi idi. El\u0259 bil, h\u0259yat\u0131m sanki t\u0259krarlan\u0131r. Eyni s\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r, h\u0259r g\u00fcn eyni qat\u0131q satan g\u0259lib s\u0259h\u0259r saat 08:00-da m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259mizd\u0259 \u201cQat\u0131q var, qat\u0131q\u201d dey\u0259r\u0259k q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131r. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m m\u0259hl\u0259miz\u0259, yen\u0259 eyni adamlar, eyni qon\u015fular&#8230; \u201cSalam \u018fhm\u0259d, nec\u0259s\u0259n? M\u00f6hk\u0259m ol\u201d deyib ke\u00e7irl\u0259r. <!--more-->H\u0259r g\u00fcn mobil telefonuma eyni adamlar z\u0259ng edir, eyni s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r, eyni ist\u0259kl\u0259r&#8230; biri pul ist\u0259yir, biri deyir g\u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259k, \u00e7ay i\u00e7\u0259k, qohumlar da z\u0259ng ed\u0259nd\u0259 \u201c\u018fhm\u0259d, n\u0259 vaxt evl\u0259nirs\u0259n, bizi unutma haa\u201d deyirl\u0259r. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r olar ax\u0131 bu t\u0259krar\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q?! B\u0259s, bir vaxtlar x\u0259yallarda arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, canland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z o \u201cr\u0259ngar\u0259ng, g\u00f6z\u0259l h\u0259yat\u201d han\u0131, harada qald\u0131?!<\/div>\n<p><div id=\"_mcePaste\">A\u00e7\u0131ram televizoru, yen\u0259 t\u0259krar\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q&#8230; AZTV Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n inki\u015faf etmi\u015f \u00f6lk\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7evirib, ANS is\u0259 h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 \u201cC\u0259bh\u0259 x\u0259ttind\u0259 nisbi sakitli\u00e7ilikdir\u201d ifad\u0259si il\u0259 lap bezdirib tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131&#8230; Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 son vaxtlar televizora da baxm\u0131ram. N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, \u0130nternet var, daha d\u0259qiq des\u0259k, Facebook \u015f\u0259b\u0259k\u0259si. M\u0259n dey\u0259rdim, \u0259n operativ x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259ri m\u0259hz bu \u015f\u0259b\u0259k\u0259d\u0259n al\u0131ram h\u0259r g\u00fcn. Amma bu \u015f\u0259b\u0259k\u0259 d\u0259 bezdirici olub ax\u0131r vaxtlar. Fikir verir\u0259m, ham\u0131 eyni \u015feyl\u0259ri t\u0259krar-t\u0259krar yazmaqla vaxt\u0131n\u0131 ke\u00e7irir&#8230; B\u0259zi cavan q\u0131zlar \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xan kimi tez bir foto \u00e7\u0259kdirib Facebooka yerl\u0259\u015fdirir v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r xo\u015fb\u0259xt oldu\u011funu bizl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259k ist\u0259yir&#8230; \u0259slind\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc aldad\u0131r bununla, he\u00e7 d\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt filan deyil. Yen\u0259 \u201cM\u00fcsavat\u201d ba\u015fqan\u0131 \u0130sa b\u0259y gec\u0259 saat 03:00 rad\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 Facebooka daxil olub n\u0259s\u0259 yaz\u0131r, camaat, x\u00fcsus\u0259n d\u0259 m\u00fcsavat\u00e7\u0131 g\u0259ncl\u0259r ba\u015flay\u0131rlar b\u0259h-b\u0259hl\u0259 \u015f\u0259rhl\u0259r yazma\u011fa&#8230; n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r olar ax\u0131?! N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r olar ax\u0131?! \u201c\u0130r\u0259li\u201d s\u0259dri Ceyhun Osmanl\u0131 h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 m\u0259xsus milli.az v\u0259 ya 1news.az saytlar\u0131ndan linkl\u0259r yerl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259kl\u0259 \u00f6z t\u0259\u015fkilat\u0131n\u0131 reklam edir, Ayd\u0131n xan \u018fbili is\u0259 yen\u0259 m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t sah\u0259sind\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n savay\u0131 dahi olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 bu s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n d\u0259 ciddi t\u0259zyiql\u0259rl\u0259 \u00fczl\u0259\u015fdiyini b\u0259yan edir. H\u0259rd\u0259n he\u00e7 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m adamlar Facebookda m\u0259n\u0259 yaz\u0131r ki, n\u0259 bilim, xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, m\u0259n\u0259 s\u0259s ver v\u0259 ya m\u0259nim hans\u0131sa fotomu, s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc b\u0259y\u0259n. El\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 onlardan geri qalm\u0131ram. At\u0131 at\u0131n yan\u0131na ba\u011flayanda, h\u0259mcins olar, deyibl\u0259r. M\u0259n d\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn ya \u015feirl\u0259rimd\u0259n v\u0259 ya yaz\u0131lar\u0131mdan hans\u0131n\u0131sa Facebookda payla\u015fmaqla g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcn u\u011furlu ke\u00e7diyini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m. Yax\u015f\u0131, n\u0259 vaxta kimi bel\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yik?! Yorulmam\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z?! \u015e\u0259xs\u0259n m\u0259n yoruluram.<\/div>\n<p><div id=\"_mcePaste\">Yoruluram insanlar\u0131n maskalanma\u011f\u0131ndan, yoruluram insanlar\u0131n hans\u0131sa etiketl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259yatlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fctm\u0259yini seyr ed\u0259nd\u0259. Ayd\u0131n xan \u018fbili bir d\u0259f\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, ona 22 \u0130yul g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 f\u0259xri ad verilm\u0259diyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, ba\u015flayacaq m\u00fcxalif\u0259t\u00e7iliy\u0259&#8230; Niy\u0259? N\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn?! H\u00f6rm\u0259tli, Ayd\u0131n xan, niy\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc ki\u00e7ildirsiz sizi sev\u0259nl\u0259rin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda? El\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r ki, siz b\u00fct\u00fcn f\u0259aliyy\u0259tinizi c\u0259miyy\u0259ti maarifl\u0259ndirm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn etmirsiz. Bunu ona g\u00f6r\u0259 edirsiniz ki, d\u00f6vl\u0259t siz\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 versin v\u0259 siz bu ad\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259rinizd\u0259 g\u0259zdirm\u0259kl\u0259 daha da inamla, ilhamla \u00e7al\u0131\u015fas\u0131z, yeni-yeni adlar qazanmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn?! N\u0259 is\u0259&#8230; Ayd\u0131n xan haqq\u0131nda n\u0259s\u0259 \u00e7ox dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. H\u0259rd\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u0259lir&#8230; n\u0259 xan, n\u0259 b\u0259y?! Ayd\u0131n \u018fbilov v\u0259 ya Ayd\u0131n \u018fbili&#8230;<\/div>\n<p><div id=\"_mcePaste\">\u00d6z\u00fcm\u0259 s\u00f6z vermi\u015f\u0259m ki, h\u0259r g\u00fcn ax\u015famlar \u00e7\u0131x\u0131m bulvarda g\u0259zim. Guya t\u0259miz hava al\u0131m, h\u0259m d\u0259 idman edim. N\u0259 t\u0259miz hava?! B\u00fct\u00fcn Bak\u0131n\u0131n zir-zibili, mazutu, kanalizasiyas\u0131 el\u0259 bulvardad\u0131r. \u0130nsanlar da eyni, g\u0259zi\u015fl\u0259ri d\u0259 eyni. H\u0259r g\u00fcn eyni adamlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m orada&#8230; Ma\u015f\u0131nla ged\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 eyni qaravul\u00e7u h\u0259r g\u00fcn m\u0259nd\u0259n 20 q\u0259pik al\u0131r&#8230; bezmi\u015f\u0259m bu t\u0259krar\u00e7\u0131l\u0131qdan&#8230; Bilmir\u0259n n\u0259 edim, neyniyim ki, h\u0259yat\u0131m maraql\u0131 olsun. B\u0259z\u0259n dostlar\u0131ma dey\u0259nd\u0259 ki, dar\u0131x\u0131ram bel\u0259 ya\u015famaqdan, t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nirl\u0259r. Deyirl\u0259r, ay \u018fhm\u0259d, s\u0259n d\u0259?! S\u0259n ki, h\u0259yatda ist\u0259diyini edirs\u0259n, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6lk\u0259 g\u0259zirs\u0259n, s\u0259n niy\u0259 bezibs\u0259n h\u0259yatdan. Deyir\u0259m, bilmir\u0259m, bezmi\u015f\u0259m. M\u0259nas\u0131z, ard\u0131c\u0131ll\u0131\u011f\u0131 olmayan, s\u0259mimiyy\u0259ti olmayan, yalanlarla dolu h\u0259yat ya\u015famaqdan bezmi\u015f\u0259m. Bezmi\u015f\u0259m yalandan m\u0259n\u0259 dost dey\u0259n insanlar\u0131n saxta g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 baxmaqdan, bezmi\u015f\u0259m evind\u0259 yem\u0259y\u0259 bir tik\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yi olmayan, amma s\u0259ninl\u0259 \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc milyon\u00e7u q\u0131z\u0131 kimi aparan q\u0131zlar\u0131n \u00fcz cizgil\u0259rind\u0259n&#8230; \u0259\u015f\u015fi h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n bezmi\u015f\u0259m&#8230;<\/div>\n<p><div id=\"_mcePaste\">M\u0259n u\u015faql\u0131qda kitablarda oxuyard\u0131m ki, h\u0259yatda sevgi var, dostluq var, xo\u015fb\u0259xtli\u00e7ilik var&#8230; Han\u0131?! Sizd\u0259n soru\u015furam han\u0131 o dostluq, han\u0131 o sevgi, han\u0131 o xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik?! \u0130ll\u0259rdir bir yerd\u0259 olan, bir yerd\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k k\u0259s\u0259n insanlar\u0131n s\u0259n\u0259 x\u0259yan\u0259t etm\u0259si dostluqdurmu?! Bir q\u0131zla tan\u0131\u015f olanda ilk \u00f6nc\u0259 s\u0259nin xasiyy\u0259tini, m\u0259n\u0259vi d\u00fcnyan\u0131 x\u0259b\u0259r almaq \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259, s\u0259nin daimi i\u015finin, evinin, ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n olub-olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 soru\u015fan q\u0131zlarlam\u0131 xo\u015fb\u0259xt olacam m\u0259n? Deyirl\u0259r, h\u0259yatda xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik var&#8230; kimis\u0259 ev alanda, ma\u015f\u0131n alanda, pulu olanda deyir xo\u015fb\u0259xt\u0259m&#8230; Ham\u0131s\u0131 bo\u015f \u015feydir&#8230; Yoxdur h\u0259yatda n\u0259 dostluq, n\u0259 sevgi, n\u0259 d\u0259 ki xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik&#8230;<\/div>\n<p>\n<div id=\"_mcePaste\"><strong>\u018fhm\u0259d \u015eahidov<\/strong><\/div>\n<div id=\"_mcePaste\"><strong>06 Avqust 2010-cu il saat 01:01, Bak\u0131, Az\u0259rbaycan<\/strong><\/div>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u00d6z\u00fcm-\u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 s\u0259mimi s\u00f6hb\u0259t&#8230; Yen\u0259 d\u00fcn\u0259nki g\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015fay\u0131ram&#8230; el\u0259 d\u00fcn\u0259nki g\u00fcn d\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi idi. El\u0259 bil, h\u0259yat\u0131m sanki t\u0259krarlan\u0131r. Eyni s\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r, h\u0259r g\u00fcn eyni qat\u0131q satan g\u0259lib s\u0259h\u0259r saat&hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":1561,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[236,5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1560","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-articles","category-article"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/ahmad9.jpg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1560","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1560"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1560\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12473,"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1560\/revisions\/12473"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/1561"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1560"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1560"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1560"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}