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\"\"<\/a>Bug\u00fcn yen\u0259 s\u0259ni xat\u0131rlad\u0131m, \u0259zizim. \u0130st\u0259dim s\u0259n\u0259 olan hissl\u0259rimi etiraf edim. Amma bilmir\u0259m n\u0259 deyim, n\u0259 yaz\u0131m ki, m\u0259nim s\u0259n\u0259 olan sevgimi ifad\u0259 ed\u0259 bilsin. Deyirl\u0259r, s\u00f6z\u00fcn g\u00fcc\u00fc, q\u00fcvv\u0259ti b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fcr. M\u00fcharib\u0259l\u0259r, sava\u015flar k\u0259sib s\u00f6zl\u0259r. Amma n\u0259s\u0259 ya m\u0259n s\u00f6z tapa bilmir\u0259m, ya da s\u00f6z boynu b\u00fck\u00fckd\u00fcr m\u0259nim hissl\u0259rimi ifad\u0259 etm\u0259kd\u0259. Amma yen\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015facam.
\n\u00dcr\u0259yim deyir \u201cYaz!\u201d Amma bilmir\u0259m n\u0259 yaz\u0131m. S\u0259ni nec\u0259 sevdiyimi? Yoxsa s\u0259nin\u00e7\u00fcn burnumun ucunun g\u00f6yn\u0259diyini yaz\u0131m?! B\u0259lk\u0259 s\u0259nin o g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 baxmaqdan m\u0259hrum oldu\u011fumu deyim s\u0259n\u0259?
\nS\u0259nin qoxunu itirm\u0259kd\u0259n qorxuram. S\u0259ni bir daha itirm\u0259kd\u0259n qorxuram yaman. \u0130ndi s\u0259nin yan\u0131nda olmaq, \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n tutmaq v\u0259 b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk qucaqlamaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m s\u0259ni.
\nS\u0259n sevil\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r \u015firins\u0259n. S\u0259n itirilm\u0259k qorxusu q\u0259d\u0259r m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259ss\u0259n. S\u0259n hava kimi laz\u0131msan m\u0259n\u0259. H\u0259r g\u00fcn s\u0259ninl\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259rimi a\u00e7maq, h\u0259r g\u00fcn ba\u015f\u0131m sin\u0259nd\u0259 yuxuya getm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m.
\n\u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qollar\u0131m \u00fcst\u0259 qoyasan. \u015eirin-\u015firin yuxuya dalasan. M\u0259n d\u0259 tama\u015fa edim. S\u0259nin gedib-g\u0259l\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259sini qoruyum. \u0130yini dad\u0131m.
\nH\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n oyan\u0131b, s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259r yem\u0259yi haz\u0131rlay\u0131m. Yem\u0259yimiz bir, i\u00e7m\u0259yimiz d\u0259 bir olsun. \u018fll\u0259rinin istisini q\u0259lbim\u0259 almaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m. \u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259 sevgid\u0259n, m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259td\u0259n uzun-uzad\u0131 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131m. Gec\u0259l\u0259rimiz uzun, s\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259rimiz bahar n\u0259f\u0259sli olsun. \u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m ki, he\u00e7 kimin olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir m\u0259kanda t\u0259k ikimiz olaq. He\u00e7 kimd\u0259n gizl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259k. He\u00e7 kim bizi g\u00f6rm\u0259sin. He\u00e7 kimd\u0259n utanmayaq. Ham\u0131 biz\u0259 h\u0259s\u0259d apars\u0131n. Allah\u0131n yer \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rdiyi \u0259n \u00fclvi hissl\u0259ri biz ya\u015fayaq. B\u0259\u015f\u0259r tarixind\u0259 m\u00f6vcud olan \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck, \u0259n m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s v\u0259 \u0259n saf e\u015fqi m\u0259hz biz ya\u015fayaq. \u0130ndiy\u0259 kimi ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015f b\u00fct\u00fcn sevgil\u0259ri arxada qoyaq. Sevgi kitab\u0131nda yeni s\u0259hif\u0259 a\u00e7aq. He\u00e7 vaxt yaz\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f, he\u00e7 vaxt deyilm\u0259mi\u015f, he\u00e7 vaxt e\u015fidilm\u0259mi\u015f sevgi etiraflar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259 etm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m. H\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 r\u0259\u011fm\u0259n s\u0259ni sevm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m.
\nKimin n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259sind\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq, haqq\u0131m\u0131zda kimin n\u0259 dem\u0259sind\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq, yen\u0259 s\u0259ni sevm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m, \u0259zizim:<\/p>\n

Duy\u011fular vard\u0131r anlat\u0131lmayan\u2026
\nSevgil\u0259r vard\u0131r k\u0259lim\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 ol\u00e7\u00fclm\u0259y\u0259n\u2026
\nBax\u0131\u015flar vard\u0131r insan\u0131 bir \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu a\u011flatan\u2026
\nYollar vard\u0131r ke\u00e7ilm\u0259si \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tin olan\u2026
\nQ\u0259lbl\u0259r vard\u0131r d\u0259rdl\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan..
\nv\u0259 insanlar vard\u0131r he\u00e7 unudulmayan..<\/strong><\/p>\n

S\u0259n m\u0259hz o insanlardansan, h\u0259yat\u0131m, \u0259zizim, can\u0131m m\u0259nim. Z\u0259nn etm\u0259, m\u0259n sevib t\u0259rk ed\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n\u0259m. M\u0259nim sevgim m\u0259zara q\u0259d\u0259r olanlardand\u0131r\u2026Kims\u0259, amma he\u00e7 kims\u0259 m\u0259ni bu sevdadan vaz ke\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259cbur ed\u0259 bilm\u0259z. S\u0259n d\u0259 bacara bilm\u0259zs\u0259n\u2026 qap\u0131dan qovsan, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r inadl\u0131yam, q\u0259fild\u0259n qar\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b da ucadan \u201cS\u0259ni sevir\u0259m, \u0259zizim\u201d dey\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r c\u00fcr\u0259tliy\u0259m. M\u0259ni unudub, t\u0259k burax\u0131b gets\u0259n d\u0259, yen\u0259 s\u0259ni sev\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0259daq\u0259tliy\u0259m bu sevgid\u0259, \u0259zizim.
\nH\u0259r saat\u0131m\u0131, h\u0259r d\u0259qiq\u0259mi, h\u0259r saniy\u0259mi, h\u0259r n\u0259f\u0259simi s\u0259ninl\u0259 alacaq q\u0259d\u0259r vur\u011funam s\u0259n\u0259, \u0259zizim.
\nSoru\u015fsan niy\u0259 bel\u0259y\u0259m. \u00c7\u00fcnki s\u0259n\u0259 vur\u011funam, \u00e7\u00fcnki ya\u015famaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m, insan kimi ya\u015famaq, m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tl\u0259 dolu bir h\u0259yat ya\u015famaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Ax\u0131 sevgi s\u0259nin \u00f6z\u00fcns\u0259n, m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t s\u0259nin g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259dir, \u0259zizim. S\u0259n a\u011flayanda \u00fcr\u0259yim s\u0131zlayar, \u0259zizim. S\u0259n g\u00fcl\u0259nd\u0259 ruhum g\u00fcl\u0259r, \u0259zizim.
\nS\u0259nin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n bu d\u00fcnyaya bir h\u0259diyy\u0259dir. M\u0259n inan\u0131ram ki, Tanr\u0131 m\u0259hz b\u0259\u015f\u0259riyy\u0259ti xilas etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, yatm\u0131\u015f insanlar\u0131 oyatmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259nin kimi t\u0259k-t\u00fck \u015f\u0259xsiyy\u0259tl\u0259ri Yer \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015fdir.
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259rin yoxdur. Amma s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn bir h\u0259yat m\u0259nb\u0259yis\u0259n. S\u0259nin s\u00f6z\u00fcn, s\u0259nin bax\u0131\u015f\u0131n, s\u0259nin g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn insana h\u0259yat b\u0259x\u015f edir. S\u0259ni sevm\u0259k, s\u0259ni \u0259zizl\u0259m\u0259k, s\u0259ni qorumaq el\u0259 Allah\u0131 qorumaq, Allaha sitayi\u015f etm\u0259k, ibad\u0259t etm\u0259k kimidir.
\nS\u0259ni sev\u0259ni Allah da sev\u0259r. S\u0259ni qoruyan\u0131 Allah da hifz ed\u0259r, \u0259zizim. S\u0259n Allah\u0131n yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 k\u00f6lg\u0259si, s\u0259n Allah\u0131n insanlara deyil\u0259c\u0259k s\u00f6z\u00fc, s\u0259n Allah\u0131n insanlara t\u00f6hf\u0259sis\u0259n, \u0259zizim. S\u0259nin g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u0259 bir d\u00fcnya gizl\u0259nib. S\u0259nin bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131nda bir c\u0259nn\u0259t v\u0259sf olunub. B\u00fct\u00fcn yer \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn aliml\u0259ri, filosoflar\u0131, \u015fairl\u0259ri y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131b g\u0259ls\u0259, s\u0259nin ruhundak\u0131 o mistik f\u0259ls\u0259f\u0259ni a\u00e7a bilm\u0259zl\u0259r. O f\u0259ls\u0259f\u0259ni a\u00e7maq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Allaha yax\u0131n olmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r. G\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 gizl\u0259nmi\u015f o sirl\u0259ri duymaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Allah\u0131 sevm\u0259k g\u0259r\u0259kdir, \u0259zizim.
\nAllah is\u0259 g\u00f6yd\u0259dir. Onu sevm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn el\u0259 s\u0259ni sevm\u0259k yet\u0259rlidir, m\u0259nc\u0259. \u00c7\u00fcnki s\u0259n Allah\u0131n el\u00e7isi, s\u0259n Allah\u0131n sevimlisi, s\u0259n Allah\u0131n sevimli q\u0131z\u0131san. Odur ki, m\u0259nd\u0259n bir daha soru\u015fma, niy\u0259 s\u0259ni sevir\u0259m. \u00c7\u00fcnki m\u0259n Allah\u0131 sevir\u0259m. \u00c7\u00fcnki m\u0259n Allah\u0131n \u0259man\u0259tini sevir\u0259m. \u00c7\u00fcnki m\u0259n Allah\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sevir\u0259m. Allah g\u00f6z\u0259ldir. Allah\u0131n yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259r bir \u015fey g\u00f6z\u0259ldir. Allah \u0259n m\u00fcdrik, \u0259n ali, \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l, \u0259n m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s varl\u0131qd\u0131r! Onun yaratd\u0131qlar\u0131nda sevgi var. Onun yaratd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131n n\u00fcv\u0259sind\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t var. Xo\u015fb\u0259xt o insand\u0131r ki, o h\u0259yatda sevgini duya bilir. Dem\u0259k Allah\u0131n h\u0259diyy\u0259sini qazan\u0131b. Xo\u015fb\u0259xt o insand\u0131r ki, o sevil\u0259 bilir. Dem\u0259li Allah\u0131n g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr. Xo\u015fb\u0259xt o insand\u0131r ki, onun \u00fcr\u0259yi bir n\u0259f\u0259ri axtar\u0131r. Dem\u0259li Allah ona ya\u015fama\u011fa, yaratma\u011fa, v\u0259 ya\u015fatma\u011fa \u00dcR\u018fK verib.
\nO \u00fcr\u0259k n\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 qadirdir, \u0130lahi?! \u0130nsan \u015f\u00fcuruna s\u0131\u011fmayan b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259ri a\u015fa bil\u0259r o \u00fcr\u0259k. Kitablara s\u0131\u011fmayacaq q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259fsan\u0259l\u0259r yaradar o \u00fcr\u0259k. B\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6lk\u0259ni, b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259ti, h\u0259tta m\u0259n dey\u0259rdim b\u00fct\u00fcn B\u0259\u015f\u0259riyy\u0259ti xilas ed\u0259r o \u00fcr\u0259k. O \u00fcr\u0259k indi m\u0259nd\u0259dir. Sin\u0259md\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcr. Vurur \u00fcr\u0259yim. Sanki q\u0259f\u0259s\u0259 sal\u0131nm\u0131\u015f bir asland\u0131r. O \u00fcr\u0259k indi arzularla doludur. Partlamaq ist\u0259yir. O \u00fcr\u0259k indi oldu\u011fu yerd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b g\u00f6yl\u0259r\u0259 u\u00e7maq ist\u0259yir. O \u00fcr\u0259k indi bir ba\u015fqa \u00fcr\u0259y\u0259 qovu\u015fmaq ist\u0259yir. O \u00fcr\u0259k art\u0131q m\u0259nim deyil,\u0259zizim.
\nO \u00fcr\u0259k s\u0259nindir. Dem\u0259k, o \u00fcr\u0259k Allah\u0131nd\u0131r. O \u00fcr\u0259k sevgiyl\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcr. O \u00fcr\u0259k ya\u015fay\u0131r. O \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259lik ola bilm\u0259z. O \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259 kin, nifr\u0259t ola bilm\u0259z. O \u00fcr\u0259k safd\u0131r. O \u00fcr\u0259k sa\u011flamd\u0131r. O \u00fcr\u0259k \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131r. O \u00fcr\u0259k sevgidir. O \u00fcr\u0259k bir bal\u0131qd\u0131r, okeanda \u00fczm\u0259k ist\u0259yir, milyardlarla insan\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259n tapm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu yar\u0131na qovu\u015fmaq ist\u0259yir.
\nAllah\u0131n m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0259n bir bax, \u0259zizim. Yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 6 milyarddan \u00e7ox insan ya\u015fay\u0131r. 6 milyard! T\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr edirs\u0259n??? Az r\u0259q\u0259m deyil. Amma \u00fcr\u0259k yaln\u0131z bir n\u0259f\u0259ri sevir. Yaln\u0131z bir n\u0259f\u0259ri axtar\u0131r. Yaln\u0131z onu ist\u0259yir. Gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz, f\u0259rq etm\u0259z, o \u00fcr\u0259k d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcr, \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131r, sevgisini g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 k\u00f6vr\u0259lir, miskin olur. G\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259candan sin\u0259d\u0259n qopma\u011fa haz\u0131r olur.
\nG\u0259r\u0259k ya\u015fayasan. G\u0259r\u0259kdir ki sev\u0259s\u0259n. G\u0259r\u0259kdir ki, sevil\u0259s\u0259n. H\u0259yatda \u0259n m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s nem\u0259t olan, Allah\u0131n h\u0259r bir insana \u0259man\u0259t etdiyi t\u0259k bir candan ke\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k bir sevgin olsun. Bu sevgi m\u0259ni sanki ay\u0131ltd\u0131. Fikirl\u0259\u015fdim ki, ay nadanlar, ay na\u015f\u00fck\u00fcrl\u0259r, ay Allah\u0131n b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0259bul etm\u0259yib d\u0259 \u015feytana qulluq ed\u0259nl\u0259r, deyirsiz sevgi yoxdur. B\u0259s onda niy\u0259 bu \u00fcr\u0259k bel\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcr \u00f6z yuvas\u0131nda?! Niy\u0259 m\u0259n yatmaq ist\u0259diyimd\u0259 o p\u0259ri g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 dayan\u0131r d\u0259rhal?! B\u0259s niy\u0259 onu unuda bilmir\u0259m?! Niy\u0259 m\u0259n onsuz ya\u015famaq ist\u0259mir\u0259m?! Niy\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n uzaq oldu\u011fu h\u0259r an bel\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fcn q\u0259d\u0259r uzun, onsuz a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131m s\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r is\u0259 gec\u0259l\u0259r q\u0259d\u0259r z\u00fclm\u0259t olur?! Niy\u0259?! B\u0259lk\u0259 bu sual\u0131ma cavab ver\u0259siniz, ay sevgid\u0259n m\u0259hrum olan yaz\u0131q b\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259r?!
\nCavab ver\u0259 bilm\u0259zsiniz! \u00c7\u00fcnki Allah\u0131 sevmirsiz! \u00c7\u00fcnki Allah siz\u0259 sevgi b\u0259x\u015f etm\u0259yib! \u00c7\u00fcnki \u015feytan\u0131n “naz-nem\u0259tin\u0259” aldanm\u0131s\u0131z! \u00c7\u00fcnki g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc pul, v\u0259zif\u0259 v\u0259 daha n\u0259l\u0259r-n\u0259l\u0259r tutub. Bir anl\u0131q durun! H\u0259yata sar\u0131l\u0131n. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b s\u0259maya bax\u0131n. Bax\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcn, g\u00f6yd\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ulduzlar var. Bax\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcn, min ill\u0259r boyu, q\u0259nir\u0259l\u0259r boyu G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f \u0259taf\u0131nda d\u00f6vr\u0259 vuran Yer niy\u0259 t\u0259lat\u00fcm ke\u00e7irir. Bu, sevgi deyils\u0259, b\u0259s n\u0259dir?!
\nYerin G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259 t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259z sevgisi olmasa, min ill\u0259r boyu saat d\u0259qiqliyi il\u0259 h\u0259r il eyni vaxtda, eyni saniy\u0259d\u0259 eyni d\u00f6vr\u0259 vurarm\u0131?! Yerin G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259 s\u0259daq\u0259tind\u0259n ibr\u0259t g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcn! M\u0259hz G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin Yer\u0259 olan sevgisidir ki, biz insanlar\u0131 qoynunda ya\u015fad\u0131r. Bizi G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin odlu-alovlu istisind\u0259n al\u0131\u015f\u0131b k\u00fcl olma\u011fa qoymur. Dem\u0259k biz ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131m\u0131za g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259hz sevgiy\u0259 borcluyuq. N\u0259 olar biz d\u0259 bir-birimizi sevs\u0259k?! N\u0259 olar \u00fcr\u0259yimizi bir insana a\u00e7saq, n\u0259 olar \u00fcr\u0259yimiz\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t nuru sa\u00e7saq?! N\u0259 olar?!
\n\u018fslind\u0259 \u00e7ox \u015fey olar, \u0259zizl\u0259rim! \u018fn \u0259sas\u0131 d\u00fcnyada qanlar t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u0259z. \u018fn \u0259sas\u0131 insanlar xo\u015fb\u0259xt olar. \u018fn \u0259sas\u0131 d\u00fcnyada bar\u0131\u015f v\u0259 s\u00fclh olar! Qan t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u0131\u0259z! Ham\u0131 firavan, xo\u015fb\u0259xt olar! Allah da bizi sev\u0259r! M\u00fcd\u0259qq\u0259s kitablarda v\u0259d etdiyi o C\u0259nn\u0259ti el\u0259 Yerd\u0259 biz\u0259 b\u0259x\u015f ed\u0259r! Budur Allah\u0131n biz\u0259 verdiyi f\u0259ls\u0259fi mesajlar! Budur v\u0259d olunan o C\u0259nn\u0259tin el\u0259 bizim \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 oldu\u011funu anlamaq! G\u0259lin bir-birimizi sev\u0259k! Bir-birimizin q\u0259drini bil\u0259k! Nec\u0259 ki, m\u0259n indi bu m\u0259ktubu yazark\u0259n x\u0259yallar\u0131mda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcm, amma m\u0259kan bax\u0131m\u0131ndan \u0259l\u00e7atmaz sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir xan\u0131m\u0131 sevir\u0259m!
\nOnu \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir\u0259m! Bir sirri d\u0259 a\u00e7maq ist\u0259yir\u0259m! \u018fslind\u0259 bu sirri min ill\u0259r boyu bir \u00e7ox filosoflar – Aristotel, F\u00fczuli, Nizami v\u0259 dig\u0259rl\u0259ri a\u00e7ma\u011fa c\u0259hd etmi\u015fl\u0259r, amma he\u00e7 biri buna nail olmam\u0131\u015flar. Bu sirrin k\u00f6k\u00fcnd\u0259 sevgi var! Sevm\u0259k, sevm\u0259k, yen\u0259 d\u0259 sevm\u0259k!
\nBudur Allah\u0131n \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck \u0259mri! Budur Allah\u0131n mahiyy\u0259ti! Allah\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc el\u0259 sevgid\u0259 gizl\u0259nib! Allah\u0131 uzaqlarda axtarmayaq!<\/p>\n

Allah sev\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259dir!
\nAllah g\u00fcl\u0259n \u00fczl\u0259rd\u0259dir!
\nAllah n\u0259cib \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259
\nH\u0259sr\u0259t dolu bax\u0131\u015flarda
\nAllah s\u0259nin q\u0259lbind\u0259dir!
\nKims\u0259nin q\u0259lbin\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259 he\u00e7 zaman
\n\u00c7\u00fcnki o \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259 Allah gizl\u0259nir
\nKims\u0259nin pay\u0131n\u0131 alma \u0259lind\u0259n
\nKims\u0259nin s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259sm\u0259 yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q
\n\u00c7\u00fcnki o s\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 Allah dill\u0259nir!
\nKims\u0259y\u0259 kin, nifr\u0259t toxumu s\u0259pm\u0259
\nHam\u0131 bir k\u00f6rp\u0259dir \u0259z\u0259ld\u0259n b\u0259ri.
\nYa\u015f\u0131na bax\u0131b da c\u0259zas\u0131n k\u0259sm\u0259,
\nRuhun ya\u015f\u0131 olmaz, ruh m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259sdir.
\nToxunma ruhuna sev\u0259n insan\u0131n,
\nOturub u\u015faq t\u0259k a\u011flaya bil\u0259r.
\nEvini ald\u0131nsa, \u00e7\u00f6ll\u0259rd\u0259 qalar,
\n\u00c7\u00f6r\u0259yin ald\u0131nsa, ac, susuz qalar,
\nSoyuqdan \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcb, bir a\u011fac altda
\nBirt\u0259h\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc qoruya bil\u0259r.
\nAmma insanlar\u0131n e\u015fqini alma
\nN\u0259 ed\u0259r, neyl\u0259y\u0259r insan sevgisiz?!
\n\u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc Allah\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n salma
\nAllah\u0131n c\u0259zas\u0131 \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131r g\u0259l\u0259r.
\nQorxun o c\u0259zaya m\u0259hkum olmaqdan
\nSevin, \u00e7\u00fcnki h\u0259yat yoxdur sevgisiz
\nD\u00fcnya bizimkidir, bizs\u0259 Allah\u0131n!<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bu n\u0259dir, \u0259zizim? A\u011flay\u0131ram. S\u0259ni \u00e7ox sevir\u0259m! Bu q\u0259d\u0259r s\u00f6z\u00fc m\u0259n haradan \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131m?! \u0130lahi, s\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 neyn\u0259mis\u0259n?! He\u00e7 vaxt hiss etm\u0259diyim g\u00fcc\u00fc, q\u00fcvv\u0259ti m\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259x\u015f etmis\u0259n! \u018fzizim, m\u0259n s\u0259ni sevir\u0259m! \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u00e7ox! Qurban olum s\u0259n\u0259, m\u0259ni bu sevgid\u0259n m\u0259hrum etm\u0259! M\u0259nim sevgimi inkar etm\u0259! D\u0259li olaram, ya\u015faya bilm\u0259r\u0259m! Vallah, billah!<\/p>\n

\u018fhm\u0259d \u015eahidov<\/strong>
\n 04 Sentyabr 2011-ci il, saat 15:30, Moskva, Rusiya Federasiyas\u0131\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Bug\u00fcn yen\u0259 s\u0259ni xat\u0131rlad\u0131m, \u0259zizim. \u0130st\u0259dim s\u0259n\u0259 olan hissl\u0259rimi etiraf edim. Amma bilmir\u0259m n\u0259 deyim, n\u0259 yaz\u0131m ki, m\u0259nim s\u0259n\u0259 olan sevgimi ifad\u0259 ed\u0259 bilsin. Deyirl\u0259r, s\u00f6z\u00fcn g\u00fcc\u00fc, q\u00fcvv\u0259ti b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fcr.… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2401,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[236,5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2268","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-articles","category-article"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/mektub.jpg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2268","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2268"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2268\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12457,"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2268\/revisions\/12457"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/2401"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2268"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2268"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2268"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}