{"id":3449,"date":"2012-07-06T12:22:14","date_gmt":"2012-07-06T08:22:14","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/?p=3449"},"modified":"2020-03-11T21:11:18","modified_gmt":"2020-03-11T17:11:18","slug":"m%c9%99n-f%c9%99rqli-soz-dem%c9%99k-ist%c9%99yir%c9%99m","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/shahidov.com\/en\/?p=3449","title":{"rendered":"“M\u018fN F\u018fRQL\u0130 S\u00d6Z DEM\u018fK \u0130ST\u018fY\u0130R\u018fM” – Foto m\u00fcsahib\u0259"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"shahidov\"<\/a>\u018fhm\u0259d \u015eahidov: “\u00dcr\u0259yim\u0259 azadl\u0131q vermi\u015f\u0259m”<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u018fhm\u0259di qiyabi olaraq \u00e7oxdan tan\u0131y\u0131ram. Salam-k\u0259lam\u0131m\u0131z, bir-birimiz\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ql\u0131 ehtiram\u0131m\u0131z olub h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259. Q\u0131sa bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t eyni kollektivd\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f\u0131q. Ke\u00e7\u0259n il t\u0259xmin\u0259n bu aylarda m\u0259n h\u0259min kollektivd\u0259n ayr\u0131lan \u0259r\u0259f\u0259d\u0259 \u018fhm\u0259d m\u0259n\u0259 \u00f6z \u015feirl\u0259rini oxuma\u011fa verdi. Bildirdi ki, kitab\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7apa haz\u0131rlay\u0131r v\u0259 m\u0259nim d\u0259 \u015feirl\u0259rl\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ist\u0259yir. \u015eeirl\u0259ri oxudum v\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn a\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131 klassik \u00fcslubda q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f, pafoslu v\u0259 t\u0259nt\u0259n\u0259li \u015feirl\u0259r o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 xo\u015fuma g\u0259lm\u0259di. Kitab\u0131na se\u00e7diyi q\u0259rib\u0259 ad da xo\u015fuma g\u0259lm\u0259di. Alim dostum kitaba maraql\u0131 v\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 ad se\u00e7mi\u015fdi: “S\u0259n d\u0259 yer ver a\u015fka”. M\u0259n sad\u0259c\u0259 kitab\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259yi\u015fdirilm\u0259si t\u0259klifini vers\u0259m d\u0259, \u018fhm\u0259d inad\u0131ndan d\u00f6nm\u0259di v\u0259 kitab el\u0259 bu adla da \u00e7ap olundu. Kitab\u0131n \u00e7ap\u0131ndan sonra \u018fhm\u0259d ilk m\u00fcsahib\u0259sini m\u0259n\u0259 verdi v\u0259 dem\u0259k olar ki, tamam ba\u015fqa i\u015fl\u0259rl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

H\u0259rd\u0259n t\u0259dbirl\u0259rd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259\u015firdik. Amma g\u00fcnl\u0259rin bir g\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb uzun-uzad\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259\u015fdik. \u018fhm\u0259d yeni yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feirl\u0259rini oxudu v\u0259 m\u0259n hiss el\u0259dim ki, onun yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ciddi keyfiyy\u0259t d\u0259yi\u015fikliyi ba\u015f verib. G\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k planlar\u0131ndan dan\u0131\u015fanda is\u0259, ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm ki, \u018fhm\u0259d \u0259d\u0259biyyata ciddi \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131r v\u0259 bu m\u00fchitd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259sdiql\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259 israrl\u0131d\u0131r. Q\u0259rar verdim ki, alim dostumdan bir m\u00fcsahib\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcm. Uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t planla\u015fd\u0131rsaq da, \u018fhm\u0259dl\u0259 Milli “Sevgilil\u0259r g\u00fcn\u00fc”nd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck. Olduqca h\u00fcznl\u00fc v\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rli g\u00f6rk\u0259mind\u0259n ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm ki, \u015fair yen\u0259 \u00f6z d\u00fcnyas\u0131ndad\u0131r. Onu bir az da olsa bu t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kib g\u0259tirm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 tutdum. Bel\u0259likl\u0259, h\u0259ms\u00f6hb\u0259tim g\u0259nc alim, siyas\u0259t\u00e7i v\u0259 n\u0259hay\u0259t m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sad\u0259c\u0259 \u015fair \u018fhm\u0259d \u015eahidovdur.<\/p>\n

-\u018fhm\u0259d, m\u0259n bildiyim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 roman yazma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131san. Nec\u0259 gedir roman\u0131n yaz\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– B\u0259li, hal-haz\u0131rda yeni roman yaz\u0131ram. Hardan ba\u015flay\u0131b, harda bitir\u0259c\u0259yimi, s\u00fcjet x\u0259ttini m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259nl\u0259\u015fdirmi\u015f\u0259m. N\u0259yi nec\u0259 yazaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilir\u0259m. Amma bu aralar \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131n qoynuna atm\u0131\u015fam. \u015eeirl\u0259rim d\u0259, hal-haz\u0131rki ovqat\u0131m\u0131 \u0259ks etdirir. M\u0259n \u00fcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259 s\u00fcni, qurama yaza bilmir\u0259m. Ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131m v\u0259 \u0259hval\u0131m yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259r\u0259 birba\u015fa t\u0259sir edir. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u015feir\u0259, sevgiy\u0259, e\u015fq\u0259, k\u00fcs\u00fcb-bar\u0131\u015fma\u011fa h\u0259sr el\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. H\u0259yat\u0131m k\u00fcs\u00fcb-bar\u0131\u015fmaq \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 qurulub. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, bu g\u00fcn sevgilil\u0259r g\u00fcn\u00fcd\u00fcr v\u0259 m\u0259n bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 indiy\u0259c\u0259n k\u00fcs\u00fcb bar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam. G\u00f6r\u0259k ax\u0131r\u0131 nec\u0259 olur. (g\u00fcl\u00fcr)<\/p>\n

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– M\u0259nc\u0259 bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011fa t\u0259sirsiz \u00f6t\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr. S\u0259n nec\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Bu ya\u015fant\u0131lar\u0131n yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011fa \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck t\u0259siri dan\u0131lmazd\u0131r. X\u00fcsus\u0259n \u015feir yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131mda m\u0259n bu t\u0259siri ciddi \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 hiss edir\u0259m. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb, uydurub yaz\u0131rd\u0131m. \u0130ndi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131n vaxt\u0131 ke\u00e7ib. T\u0259hsil ill\u0259rind\u0259 kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fam. \u0130ndi is\u0259 bir az da olsa h\u0259yat\u0131 “bo\u015f verm\u0259yi” t\u0259tbiq edir\u0259m. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r olar kompleksl\u0259rl\u0259, \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 ya\u015famaq? Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 azadl\u0131q vermi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– B\u0259s roman\u0131n hans\u0131 m\u00f6vzudad\u0131r?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Romanda \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc, ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131m\u0131n b\u00f6y\u00fck hiss\u0259sini q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 al\u0131ram. Ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131m\u0131n t\u0259xmin\u0259n yar\u0131s\u0131 bu \u0259s\u0259rd\u0259 \u00f6z \u0259ksini tapacaq. Ancaq \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc v\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131m\u0131 yaz\u0131ram. D\u00fczd\u00fcr, m\u0259kan\u0131, zaman\u0131, personajlar\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fir\u0259m. Amma bel\u0259 deyim, iki g\u0259ncin sevgisind\u0259n b\u0259hs ed\u0259b bir roman olacaq.<\/p>\n

-S\u0259nc\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131n, duy\u011fular\u0131n oxucular \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn maraql\u0131 olacaqm\u0131?<\/strong><\/p>\n

-M\u0259nc\u0259 burda \u0259sas m\u0259qs\u0259d \u018fhm\u0259d \u015eahidovun ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 qabartmaq deyil. Bu bel\u0259 olsa he\u00e7 roman dem\u0259r\u0259m yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u0259s\u0259r\u0259. H\u0259r bir insan\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 ciddi bir \u0259s\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7evirm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, adi bir dil\u0259n\u00e7inin h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fck bir romana \u00e7evirm\u0259k, maraql\u0131 el\u0259m\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr. Sad\u0259c\u0259 q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131na d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u00fcfuz etm\u0259k lazmd\u0131r. Adi bir insan\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131ndan b\u00f6y\u00fck bir \u0259s\u0259r yazmaq olar. M\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, ya\u015fanan duy\u011fular \u00e7ox ciddi m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259dir. \u0130nsan hissl\u0259ri \u00e7ox maraql\u0131d\u0131r. Sevgi, ayr\u0131l\u0131q, v\u00fcsal, h\u0259sr\u0259t, hicran, intihar… B\u00fct\u00fcn ya\u015fant\u0131lar eynidir.<\/p>\n

-\u015eair, son vaxtlar \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259, s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259 bir intihar havas\u0131 var…<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Bilirs\u0259n, insan g\u0259r\u0259k h\u0259yatda \u0259ld\u0259 etdikl\u0259rini yava\u015f-yava\u015f, asta-asta \u0259ld\u0259 etsin. M\u0259nim h\u0259yat\u0131mda h\u0259r \u015fey \u00e7ox s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 ba\u015f verib. H\u0259r \u015fey ard\u0131c\u0131ll\u0131qla ba\u015f verib. Litsey, universitet, magistratura, m\u00fcdafi\u0259, vaxt\u0131ndan \u0259vv\u0259l elml\u0259r doktoru, daha sonra xaricd\u0259 oxumaq…El dilind\u0259 des\u0259k, bir evl\u0259nm\u0259k qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, evl\u0259ndirdil\u0259r. Amma m\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar ard\u0131c\u0131l yox, fasil\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 olsayd\u0131, daha maraql\u0131, daha \u015firin olard\u0131. \u0130ndi hiss edir\u0259m ki, daha \u00e7ox sevgiy\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131m var. Bu g\u00fcn sevgilil\u0259r g\u00fcnd\u00fcr, g\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7ox b\u0259rbad halda, kefsiz ba\u015flad\u0131m. \u00c7\u00fcnki sevgiliml\u0259 k\u00fcs\u00fcl\u00fc idim. G\u00fcnortaya do\u011fru bar\u0131\u015fd\u0131q, amma sonra yen\u0259 k\u00fcsd\u00fc. T\u0259bii ki, bu ovqat\u0131ma \u00e7ox ciddi t\u0259sir edir. Amma yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131ma da yax\u015f\u0131 t\u0259siri olur bu ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131m\u0131n. M\u0259ni y\u00fcz n\u0259f\u0259r anlay\u0131b ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259 b\u0259simdir. \u018fmin\u0259m ki, m\u0259niml\u0259 eyni hissl\u0259ri payla\u015fan insanlar h\u00f6km\u0259n olacaq.<\/p>\n

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– S\u0259n n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 birinci kitab\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259bli\u011fat\u0131 il\u0259 ciddi \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olmad\u0131n. O kitab\u0131 b\u0259y\u0259nm\u0259din?<\/strong><\/p>\n

-H\u0259m i\u015fl\u0259rimin \u00e7oxlu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259, h\u0259m d\u0259 kitab\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yimc\u0259 olmamas\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 “S\u0259n d\u0259 yer ver a\u015fka” adl\u0131 kitab\u0131m\u0131n t\u0259bli\u011fi il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olmad\u0131m. Eyni zamanda o kitabda toplanan \u015feirl\u0259ri z\u0259if hesab edir\u0259m. Amma s\u0259n d\u0259 bayaq qeyd el\u0259din ki, yeni \u015feirl\u0259rimd\u0259 xeyli keyfiyy\u0259t d\u0259yi\u015fikliyi var v\u0259 bunu bir \u00e7ox dostlar\u0131m m\u0259n\u0259 deyib. \u018fmin\u0259m ki, bu kitabda \u00fcr\u0259yimc\u0259 olmayan \u015feirl\u0259r olmayacaq v\u0259 oxucular\u0131m \u00e7ox b\u0259y\u0259n\u0259c\u0259k. Dizayn v\u0259 keyfiyy\u0259t\u0259 diqq\u0259t ed\u0259c\u0259m. \u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m bu kitab, s\u0259s-k\u00fcy sals\u0131n.<\/p>\n

– H\u0259m d\u0259 bu il s\u0259nin 30 ya\u015f\u0131n tamam olcaq. Bildiyim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bu kitab 30 ya\u015fda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259n olacaq. 3 il geriy\u0259 boylananda n\u0259l\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, nec\u0259 ke\u00e7di bu 30 illik \u00f6m\u00fcr yolun?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– U\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00e7ox f\u0259lak\u0259tli ke\u00e7ib des\u0259m yalan olar, amma \u00e7ox xo\u015fb\u0259xt d\u0259 ke\u00e7m\u0259yib. Atam hardasa 30 ya\u015f\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r i\u00e7ki i\u00e7ib v\u0259 bu m\u0259nim h\u0259yat\u0131ma \u00e7ox ciddi t\u0259sir edib. Eyni zamanda evin sonbe\u015fiyi oldu\u011fum \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn guya \u0259zizl\u0259nirdim, amma daha \u00e7ox da m\u0259ni incidirdil\u0259r. Bu m\u0259nim m\u0259kt\u0259b ill\u0259rim\u0259 \u00e7ox ciddi t\u0259sir edib. M\u0259nim h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 i\u00e7kiy\u0259 v\u0259 alkaqola nifr\u0259tim olub. Bu m\u0259nim dindar olma\u011f\u0131mla ba\u011fl\u0131 deyil. B\u00fct\u00fcn dinl\u0259r\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259tim olsa da dindar deyil\u0259m, sad\u0259c\u0259 i\u00e7kiy\u0259 nifr\u0259tim oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn i\u00e7mir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– Yarad\u0131c\u0131 adam\u0131n i\u00e7m\u0259m\u0259yi \u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259dir. B\u0259s g\u0259rginliyi, stressi nec\u0259 at\u0131rsan?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Q\u0259rib\u0259 olsa da, i\u00e7mir\u0259m. M\u0259n yaz\u0131lar\u0131mla stress at\u0131ram. D\u0259niz k\u0259nar\u0131nda g\u0259zir\u0259m, barmaqla say\u0131lacaq q\u0259d\u0259r az dostum var, onlarla zarafatla\u015fmaq, s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k stressi azald\u0131r. \u0130nternet, \u015f\u0259xsi bloqumla m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olmaq da sakitl\u0259\u015fdirir. Amma tam olaraq stress atmaq al\u0131nm\u0131r.<\/p>\n

– H\u0259r yarad\u0131c\u0131 adam\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259m\u0259xsus yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131q m\u0259tb\u0259xi olur. S\u0259n g\u00fcn\u00fcn hans\u0131 saatlar\u0131nda v\u0259 nec\u0259 yaz\u0131rsan?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Ad\u0259t\u0259n gec\u0259 saatar\u0131nda yaz\u0131ram. Tam bir sistemim yoxdur. G\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259r d\u0259 yaz\u0131ram. Amma ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131m\u0131 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, daha \u00e7ox gec\u0259l\u0259r v\u0259 bilgisayarla yaz\u0131ram. Yaz\u0131lar\u0131mda \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck problemim birinci c\u00fcml\u0259 problemidir.<\/p>\n

– Yaz\u0131da “ili\u015f\u0259nd\u0259” neynirs\u0259n?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– M\u0259n yaz\u0131 prosesind\u0259 sevdiyim m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nnil\u0259ri dinl\u0259m\u0259yi sevir\u0259m. Y\u0131ld\u0131z Tilbe, \u0130brahim Tatl\u0131s\u0259s, Sibel Can kimi m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nnil\u0259ri, h\u0259zin musiqil\u0259ri dinl\u0259yir\u0259m. T\u00fcrk musiqil\u0259ri \u00e7ox xo\u015fuma g\u0259lir. Az\u0259rbaycan musiqil\u0259rind\u0259 ist\u0259diyim romantikan\u0131 tapa bilmir\u0259m. Alim Qas\u0131mov d\u00fcnyan\u0131n sevdiyi, q\u0259bul etdiyi korifey s\u0259n\u0259tkard\u0131r. Amma m\u0259n onu ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– Dem\u0259li, k\u0259d\u0259ri v\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rli musiqil\u0259ri sevirs\u0259n?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Faci\u0259d\u0259n yaranan k\u0259d\u0259ri sevmir\u0259m. Amma h\u00fczn sakitlik g\u0259tirir. \u0130ndi s\u0259ninl\u0259 \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz oturmu\u015fam v\u0259 \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck k\u0259d\u0259r i\u00e7ind\u0259y\u0259m. \u00c7\u00fcnki sevgiliml\u0259 m\u00fcbahis\u0259 el\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m v\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rliy\u0259m. Bayaqdan SMS-l\u0259r yaz\u0131r v\u0259 m\u0259ni qar\u011f\u0131y\u0131r. El\u0259 qar\u011f\u0131\u015flar qar\u011fay\u0131r ki, indiy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r bunu he\u00e7 k\u0259s m\u0259n\u0259 etm\u0259yib. Amma sevgilimin qar\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131 da m\u0259n\u0259 xo\u015fdur. Bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259rd\u0259n narahat\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m yoxdur. Sevgilimd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n h\u0259r \u015fey g\u00f6z\u0259ldir.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259nc\u0259 s\u0259n \u00e7ox da pessimist adam deyils\u0259n ax\u0131…<\/strong><\/p>\n

– H\u0259rd\u0259n olur ki, \u00e7ox pessimist oluram. Evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259mir\u0259m v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 qap\u0131l\u0131ram. Amma \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc h\u0259r zaman pessimist hesab etmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– Bayaq dedin ki, dostlar\u0131n azd\u0131r. \u00c7ox az adamla m\u00fcnasib\u0259t saxlay\u0131rsan. N\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn insanlarla \u00fcnsiyy\u0259td\u0259n qa\u00e7\u0131rsan?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Bunun bir ne\u00e7\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259bi var. \u018fsas s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259rd\u0259n biri siyasi bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131md\u0131r. Ham\u0131yla yolda\u015fl\u0131q v\u0259 dostluq etm\u0259k o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 asan deyil. \u0130\u015fim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259, \u00fcnsiyy\u0259td\u0259n qa\u00e7\u0131ram. Bir az da, \u015feirl\u0259rimi \u00e7ox sevdiyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn t\u0259nqidd\u0259n qorxuram. \u00c7\u00fcnki \u015feirl\u0259rim m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox do\u011fmad\u0131r. \u018fn pis \u015feirimi d\u0259 \u00e7ox sevir\u0259m. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7evr\u0259mi m\u0259hdud saxlay\u0131ram.<\/p>\n

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– T\u0259nqidd\u0259n n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qorxursan ki? Ax\u0131 t\u0259nqid inki\u015fafa xidm\u0259t edir.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– T\u0259nqidd\u0259n qorxmuram. Amma g\u0259l etiraf ed\u0259k ki, bizd\u0259 t\u0259nqidd\u0259n daha \u00e7ox t\u0259hqir edirl\u0259r. \u015eair\u0259 “s\u0259n z\u0259if yaz\u0131rsan, q\u0259l\u0259mi tulla, get k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 s\u00fcp\u00fcr dem\u0259k olmaz.” Bu art\u0131q t\u0259hqirdir. M\u0259n bu c\u00fcr \u015feyl\u0259r\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131yam. Amma normal t\u0259nqidi q\u0259bul edir\u0259m v\u0259 b\u0259y\u0259nir\u0259m. H\u0259rd\u0259n dostlar\u0131m da t\u0259nqid ed\u0259nd\u0259, z\u0259if \u015feirl\u0259rimi g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259nd\u0259 etiraf edib raz\u0131la\u015f\u0131ram.<\/p>\n

– M\u00fctali\u0259 il\u0259 aran nec\u0259dir?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Bu \u00e7ox yaral\u0131 yerimdir. Dem\u0259k olar ki, he\u00e7 k\u0259sin kitab\u0131n\u0131 oxumam\u0131\u015fam. Ancaq internetd\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131xan yaz\u0131lar\u0131 oxuyuram. \u018fg\u0259r internetd\u0259 Ramiz R\u00f6v\u015f\u0259nin \u015feiri qar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rsa onu oxuyuram v\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, Ramiz R\u00f6v\u015f\u0259nin b\u00f6y\u00fck \u015fair oldu\u011funu d\u0259rk el\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn kitab\u0131n\u0131 oxuma\u011fa ehtiyac yoxdur.<\/p>\n

– Amma etiraf ed\u0259k ki, yaz\u0131 adam\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu, vacibdir…<\/strong><\/p>\n

– T\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki, m\u0259n qiyabi tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m, ad\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitdiyim g\u0259nc yazarlar\u0131n n\u0259 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259rsiz\u0259m. \u018fn \u00e7ox sevdiyim insanlardan biri Kamal Abdullad\u0131r, amma onun da he\u00e7 bir \u0259s\u0259rini oxumam\u0131\u015fam. Halbuki b\u0259zi kitablar\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n dizayn el\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Sad\u0259c\u0259 elmi kitablar\u0131n\u0131 oxumu\u015fam. M\u0259n f\u0259rqli s\u00f6z dem\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m. He\u00e7 k\u0259si t\u0259qlid el\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 he\u00e7 k\u0259si oxumuram. \u015eeird\u0259 he\u00e7 bir texnika g\u00f6zl\u0259mir\u0259m. Sevgid\u0259 n\u0259 texnika ola bil\u0259r ki? \u015eeir m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sevgidir.<\/p>\n

C\u0259lil Cavan\u015fir, 06 \u0130yul 2012-ci il, “\u018fdal\u0259t” q\u0259zeti<\/strong><\/p>\n

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